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poo

Posted on Mar 3rd, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
i can't sleep

i don't feel good either

i don't know whats wrong





sometimes i just crash

:-(
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well

Posted on Mar 3rd, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
much better now, but i don't think i've reached the end

everything happens for a reason

*tentative smile?*
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still waiting

Posted on Mar 3rd, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses

listened some,
i knew something was wrong
high-pitched monosylabic dismissive noises never lie
feel better
just waiting
up and down
like that duck
at the top of the wave
i mean the bottom
or the top?

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yuck

Posted on Mar 9th, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
i have a ton of homework but i don't feel like i can do anything. my period just started and my brain is scrambled. My roommate is back and it makes me depressed. Just her presence brings me down. I act a lot different when she is around. I don't know why she affects me this much. I am lazy and messy and can't get anything done when she is around. I really don't like her, but i'm not sure why it affects me so much. I guess just the energy of guessing what rude thing she is gonna do next that is gonna shock me. I can't do anything spiritual or meditative or peaceful when she is around. yikes. I've got to live with this girl until may. it seems so far away.

poo.

the guys at work were making wife beating and rape jokes at work.

i did not think they were funny.

at all.
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spring break

Posted on Mar 18th, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
wow, it's seems like such a long time since i've been on here. i'm home for spring break. it has been both good and bad. good because i get to see my family and hang out with them and not so good because they are all undermining my new ways of living and eating. oh well. everything happens for a reason. i've been getting a lot of headaches. i'm not sure why and i can't seem to make them go away. I wonder what they are telling me.
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dreams?

Posted on Mar 21st, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
last night something malicious crept into my room. I woke as it was coming in, its presence scared me. I chastised the typist for letting it in. i think the typist is very timid. the thing crushed me, my body burned and tingled and I could not move a muscle. I fought and told it to go away, to leave my body. I struggled to move.

I don't remember if I won.
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origins

Posted on Mar 24th, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
watched that movie
it was awesome.
now i feel agitated. i want to go out and do something. unfortunately, since there is no one i know of to go do something with i am stuck in my room.
hmmm.
maybe i'll go argue with missionaries online.
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What are you unaware of?

Posted on Mar 28th, 2009 by Purtyroses : light walker Purtyroses
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for March 28, 2009:

I am unaware of anything that I am unaware of.
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Tagged with: QaR, awareness, noticing, unconscious